Reflection

It is the weekend yet again. Though I didn't sleep in for as long as I wanted to, I still feel well rested. I got my ballet uniform and shoes last night and I'm so excited to begin my classes this Monday. It has been one of my dreams to go on pointe and I'm ready to work towards that. :)

The other day after I left work, I jumped in my car for the sojourn home and when I started it...nothing. I looked at my steering and realized I left my headlights on--all day. Dagumit. So it had to be jump started by a poor fellow who I'm sure was just as eager to get home as I was. Being the paranoid person I am, I bought a brand new battery just in case. My friend, who shall remain nameless, made me get a free test last night at an auto shop. Alas it appears to be fine, so I will take the new one back and use my money for better things like--ah I don't know. I'm sure some random bill will arrive and snatch it away.

So this past year has been one of the hardest I can remember. I will spare my readers the details, but I am learning now how to move on. This is actually freeing when I'm able to remember to do so. As the apostle Paul said, "but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus." So even more than having things to look forward to, such as making new friends, decorating my apartment, taking ballet lessons, I look forward to the day when I can look back and see how it's made me in to the person God wanted me.

As one of my favorite hymns says:

Sometimes mid scenes of deepest gloom,
Sometimes where Eden's bowers bloom,
By waters still, over troubled sea,
Still 'tis His hand that leadeth me.

Lord, I would place my hand in Thine,
Nor ever murmur nor repine;
Content, whatever lot I see,
Since 'tis my God that leadeth me.

Sleepless in seatle...or wherever

Yes. I know. It is 3:30 in the morning and therefore I'm insane. But that's what happens when you don't get home until 6pm after working all day. I made a baked potato for dinner with all the trimmings, and attempted to watch a movie with my roommate--but fell asleep on the couch not long after the opening credits. So I woke up and panicked when I saw the time on my laptop was 11:30. My thought was I overslept and totally missed my ride to work...till I realized it was pm and not am. And I have been awake ever since.

I'm picking up my car at the DMV this morning at 8 so I've been looking up info and seeing what I have to bring. I've got my documents together, my check, and other stuff all neatly stacked near my purse at the door. I still feel like I'm forgetting something important though. Argh, I hate that feeling. I'm going to be very broke for a while, but I guess you can't put a price tag on independence. I'm sure Aimee will enjoy the extra few minutes of sleep, but I know I'll miss the random moments that keep me from taking myself too seriously. Her sign language skills are improving so rapidly--I feel like a proud momma. We had a convo in sign during lunch today and we only talked about other people around us. The poor souls. It was so hilarious. :)

Only two more days till the weekend. I'm going to be so dead when it comes. There's been way too much drama this week, but I'm going wash my hands of it. Hopefully, it can only get better from here on out...