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Now I'm mostly sad about some things and scared over the blank slate of my future stretching out before me. So much is unknown to me and sometimes I wish it wasn't. Last night my friend and I got dressed to the nines and went to wal-mart so I could get a new camera I've been waiting so long for. We then went to Candlers Mountain and looked over all of Lynchburg during the deep night while the city slept and the lights shone from every street corner. There was nary a person or car in sight and everything was at a standstill. Everything closes at 9 anyways in the 'burg. It was beautiful sight...and why am I being so nostalgic? I'm going to bed before I get all weepy and sentimental.

Do you know me?
Can your eyes pierce my soul?
Do you know me?
Though I appear to be in control?

Here I stand before you
Wanting to tear down my walls
This I'm afraid to do,
I don't want to ever fall...

Do you know me?
Can you see the tears I hide?
Do you know me?
Enough to see past the lies?

At foot of cross I stand
So tired, weak and worn,
Lord please just hold my hand
I don't want this anymore.

Do you know me?
When I feel I'm alone?
Do you know me?
Enough to make me your own?
Molly H.

Help me Understand

This one life
one heart
one mind
and one soul.

Inhabits a speck
of land on
one earth
just one time.

Illusions crumble,
dreams fail
hearts break
and yet...

He.
Is.
Still.
There.

Spinning the planets,
melting the earth
painting the sky
and holding...

All things
In
His
sovereign plan.

We wonder
Why?
How?
and He answers...

All things
were created
by me
and for me...

Just know
know
I hedge you
all times.

Behind.
Over.
Before.
Always.

Today.
Always.
Forever.
I am with you.

written by Molly H.

Another Saturday!

Let's see what there is to do today: make my budget, pay my bills, buy a new camera and hair straighter, add minutes to my phone, look at car ads, read my library books, do laundry, unload the dishwasher, clean my room and the bathroom, write a thank you note, call a friend, weed out emails, sign up for clep exams, buy books for D term, file papers, put hooks on the wall, pluck eyebrows, clean out purse, and exercise.

Last but not least, get energy to do all the aforesaid things without falling asleep all day.

Politics

I am getting frustrated with this upcoming election. I really don't like the candidates from either party and I'm disgusted that Christians in particular will follow the Republican party to the ends of the earth just because it's the "lesser of two evils". Whatever happened to voting for the most qualified? Who said we are responsible for the results? As for me I believe that we should vote as God would have us to, and leave the results to HIM.

And, this may bug some people, but I don't think a wishy washy McCain is the best choice for the country. Who cares if he has such a conservative vice president candidate? She's not going to be president, and is not going to be making the policies and decisions for our country. McCain will. Perchance McCain dies is she really fit to be president? What if she ends up drafting women for a war? Speaking of which, does it bother you at all that though she is pro-life she is obviously not pro-family? I mean she went back to work when her baby was three days old! Sorry, but that is not something to brag about lady.

Why does it have to be one or the other? Why can't we have both a pro-life and pro-family stance in the White House? And why are we so focused on creating "history" that we fail to take this seriously? I don't think having a woman candidate is a sign of progress. Rather I think it's unbelievably sad that McCain didn't seem to think that there were any qualified men for the position. And if there wasn't, that's sadder still.

September 11

So today is the momentous day in our history, which all of us will remember when we glance at the calender, newspaper, and news. Today I overslept by an hour so I was late to work, but I'm working hard to make up for it. I'm tired, sick, and coughing up my lungs, but I am remembering a song I signed in a choir a few years back. It seems appropriate for today.

When I'm alone,
And I face the unknown,
And I fear what the future may be.
I'll never fear, for Jesus is near.
My Lord abides with me.

How can I fear?
For Jesus is near.
He ever watches and cares for me.
Worries all cease, He gives me peace,
How can I fear, I'm with Jesus.

Thought for the day...

"God will never ask you to give something up without placing something greater in your hands." - Liberty Convo

Bleh...

So tired...from crying off and on the past few days. The worst is when I want to cry, but I can't. It's hard to get out of bed in the morning despite the knowledge that other people have it worse than me. I feel like out in public, in the work/school world I have this plastic version of myself that is happy, cheerful, friendly and yet, all the while I'm hurting so bad inside. Lest my few readers think I'm suicidal, let me reassure you I'm not. Life does feel pointless at times though, and just when I think things are getting better I get knocked down again. I guess when it comes down to it, I just want to be loved and feel like I belong somewhere instead of drifting about. I know some situations are my own doing, but why does life have to be so freaken hard? Now, I need to make my lunch for tmrw and go to bed.